Do you ever feel that when the shit hits the roof those that you thought would be there aren’t? It’s interesting that it takes life’s hurdles for us to discover who we can rely on. Lately I’ve been feeling lost not so much on the physical level; and I find it hard to turn to my girlfriends simply because my shit isn’t the usual stuff that we cry over like career, men or family issues that most of us seem concerned with 24/7. My concern is more along the lines of my life plan or spiritual journey. My Brit thinks I am in the process of becoming an ordained Buddhist Monk. Whilst I’m drawn to that idea I’m also into food, gym, writing, reading, traveling etc. so the life of a red robe won’t be for me at least not in this lifetime. I don’t know what is in store for me? Who truly does? I remember Robin Sharma’s words (paraphrased)- what we put our effort in is what creates our reality. So I guess I need to figure out what I want in order to consciously put effort into that. The weird thing is when I got up feeling low and lousy, I tried distracting my thoughts by cooking quinoa and making mango smoothie but still my mood didn’t alter. My Brit decided to SMS the monk! I thought that was funny. Funny because most people turn to friends to talk things out but here I need my monk. How crazy am I!? But what’s weirder is I found it hilarious that he texted him – I mean wouldn’t the monk be busy meditating?! I guess needing a confirmation from him that – as different as I am, I’m not. We all going though stages of development and I’m in a phase where I don’t know where life is taking me. Some people would think of life in the context of marriage, kids, career, buying a bigger house etc. but for me it’s more about what do I need to do to fully live in the moment and not be affected by the environment. These questions in my mind leave my dear girlfriends lost for words but also I know they care and would try to comfort me in their own way. I turn to my Brit, my monk and enlightened writers when I can. So who do you turn to?

“Wisdom begins in wonder.” – Socrates

“Life has three rules: Paradox, Humor, and change.
– Paradox: Life is a mystery; don’t waste your time trying to figure it out.
– Humor: Keep a sense of humor, especially about yourself. It is a strength beyond all measure.
– Change: Know that nothing ever stays the same.” – Dan Millman