It’s that time again when we sit down and think of the things we want to achieve in life. I have a long list of things from getting a six pack to getting a distinction for my Masters in Counseling, to getting a reliable helper, to being more sociable etc. However whilst these New Year’s resolutions are important, what I experienced yesterday puts well-being on the very top of my list.
Before dawn, we left our hotel to see the beautiful sunrise at Angkor Wat. One of the world’s best heritage locations. I was very excited. I thought it would be a calming spiritual experience. However it is one of the prime things to do here so it was very crowded at 5.30am. Soon I got irritated, didn’t like being in a crowd, packed so close with people around, cameras clicking every second and lights flashing with selfie sticks above our heads. I felt uncomfortable and soon my stomach started churning. The pain increased as I ignored it. Then the pain moved to my head. I panicked as my vision got fuzzy and the view of Angkor Wat was a blur. I turned to look at my husband and to only see the outline of his face and not his eyes. I tried to reach for his hand. He kept asking if I was okay but I couldn’t speak. The rest I can’t recall because I wasn’t there. My husband saw me collapse in a split second and he caught my head in time. I fell straight to the sandy ground. The crowd surrounded me in shock and some panicked. My husband kept telling me to wake up but I wasn’t there. He then yelled for a doctor and said to get the ambulance. While all this occurred I was unconscious, unaware of what was going on. I wasn’t breathing. Seconds later, I heard Eugene saying “doctor” a few times and I recognised his voice and my eyes opened. I saw myself on the floor. I was very confused seeing lots of people around me so I tried to get up soon after. Doctors from the crowd were around to take care of me and got the crowd to disperse. Upon getting up, I walked away from the crowd. I had some water and got my pulse checked and I was fine.
I was very lucky because my husband at an emergency situation stepped up and saved my life. Had my head hit the ground I could have had major head injuries. I am also grateful to the Australian doctors who happened to be there and took care of me as if I was their own child.
Well-being is my first New Year’s resolution. I take pride in staying fit and eating right but there is a lot more to well-being. Knowing my body even more is vital. I’m on border-line low blood pressure so I need to eat constantly but I went to see the sunrise on an empty stomach, an error on my part. Given the fact I have done so much work on mindfulness and listening to the body, I should have listened.
There is always a lesson to every situation. It can be to value life, to value love and honour my body.
This to my husband was very scary because I was gone, my soul left, I was there and yet not. To me, I was blank like a deep meditation, very silent and yet it was black not white light like I have read on many people’s autobiography on near death experience. I don’t think one can ever try and describe such incidents. However we can learn from them and value what we have. I know I have a lot I want to achieve and there is a reason I am here.
Make your life worth living but make it a healthy one. Know your body and the signals it gives you. Never ignore it. I did on 3 accounts. Be alert with what your body tells you.
Have a healthy 2015!
“The little things? The little moments? They aren’t little.” — Jon Kabat-Zinn
“Honour your body. You have just one place to live.” — Karina Calver